This blog is basically just a collection of my "random thoughts". I must warn you, though. I have been told that "I write like I talk", so if you don't understand what you are reading... chances are, if you met me... I wouldn't make much sense to you! Feel free to comment if you care to. Or not. I'm good either way!
Monday, March 7, 2011
Feeling Like a Child Again
Have you ever been "picked on" or "singled out"??? I can remember going through this as a child in elementary school. It's NOT fun!
Kids get picked on for many reasons ---
- because their clothes are "different" than everyone else's
- because of where they live
- because they wear glasses or braces
- because they are short
- because they are shy
- because of their religion
And they even get picked on for being "too nice"!
Well, believe it or not.... I feel like I am going through this very same thing right now, as an adult! I am not sure of the reason, but I honestly do feel like I am being "singled out" but in a suttle way.
I wish I could give you more details, but I don't want to write too much. My words could come back to haunt me later on, and I don't need for that too happen.
I am not sure what I have done to make this "person" or "persons" not like me. I am honestly NOT used to someone NOT liking me! Not to toot my own horn... but, it doesn't happen very often!
Please.... if you don't mind.... say a prayer for me that I will know how to handle this and that I can make wise choices, regarding this issue. My decisions could affect my future!
I really want to go directly to this person (and it could possibly be more than one!) and say... "What have I done to you to make you feel this way about me and do this to me??"... but, I can't.
All I can do, for now, is just "grin and bear it", smile and play their stupid little game. Maybe someday, I will have the chance to ask them my question and let them know how much it hurts my heart and also makes me angry.
*** FYI ---- I am not talking about my husband, my family or any of my close friends.