I can remember, as a child.... and even as a teenager!.... when my friends would get mad at me for some "unknown" reason and would not speak to me for a period of time. We would eventually resolve the problem and move on, but in the meantime... my feelings were hurt.
For some unknown reason, this Summer has been like that and I have been going through those same emotions, all over again. I do not understand it and do not know what I have done to cause it. David and I have been racking our brains to try and figure out what could have happened, but we keep drawing a complete "blank".
You are probably thinking... "Why don't you just TALK to your friends and find out why they are treating you this way?" Part of me DOES want to do that, but part of me is saying that I don't NEED friends that are going to treat me that way and that I should just move on and forget about it.
Over the past month, I have been able to put it out of my mind because I started my new job. which has alowed me to put the friendship thing aside and focus on something new. (A nice change!)
Things are starting to calm down at work, now that we have been back in school for a few weeks... so, now the "friendship" issue is beginning to creep back into my brain! UGH!
This morning, a little song came to my mind about friendship. I remember it from when Miranda was in Girl Scouts, but I kinda' remember it from when I was a Girl Scout, as well. These are the words that popped into my brain this morning....
Make new friends but keep the old,
One is silver and the other gold.
It got me to thinking that I need to concentrate on making "new" friends, but I also need to remember my "old" friends (not "age" wise... LOL!!).
My "old" friends are GOOD FRIENDS. They have been my friends for YEARS! They have never hurt me in any way. They don't live in my town, but they aren't so far away that I can't see them once a month, or so. I am seeing one of them on Saturday and I am SO EXCITED!!
With my new job... I can already see a couple of potential "new" friends, which I am glad of! I just need to make sure that I am "working" on those potential friendships and not letting them slip away. I went to lunch with one of those "new" friends last week. We have a lot in common, which is nice.
Today, I am having lunch with a friend that I haven't seen in a while. We haven't known each other very long, (maybe a year) but I really enjoy her friendship and would like to see our friendship "grow".