I have come to the conclusion that this is an impossible situation, and the best solution is to look for other employment.
I learned yesterday that I may never get the chance for advancement if I stay where I am. So, today.... I will sadly be turning in my two weeks' notice.
For those of you that don't know.... Since January of last year (2010), I have worked as a teaching assistant for the preschool that is at the church that I am a member of. My desire is to be a lead teacher in a 3 or 4 year old classroom. I have plenty of experience, as I have worked with children in a classroom setting, for most of my adult life. I have been the LEAD TEACHER before and enjoy it and miss it very much!
The only reason that I am a teaching "assistant" and not a "lead teacher" right now is that when I applied, there were no open teaching positions. I took the assistant job, thinking that I could move into a teaching position when one opened up.
After my talk with the preschool director yesterday, I don't think she WANTS me in a teaching position. For reasons that I don't even know... she has formed an opinion about me that isn't good! THIS has had me torn up in pieces!! Not to "toot my own horn".... but, I am an excellent teacher and you will rarely find someone that doesn't like me! So, this is something that I am having a hard time wrapping my mind around.
Anyway... I know that God has a plan for my life, and apparently... working there, isn't where I am supposed to be. Or... maybe it was for these past 18 months or so, just as a "stepping stone" to something even better. I just have to trust God and follow His lead.
This is what I will be doing ......